Have you ever wished that making tough decisions could be easier?
Have you ever wondered what it would be like to know that the decisions that you made were the right ones?
Have you ever wanted to be able to go through the day without fear?
What if I were to tell you that all this is possible, and more. Would you be interested?

All I ever really wanted was to be comfortable being me.When i was growing up, i never really felt good about myself.
then i found alcohol. wow! that stuff made me feel like everything was all right. i lost all my fears, worries, and
i felt like i could take on the world. the problem was that it didn’t last.
After awhile, all i could think about was staying drunk. my entire life revolved around drinking.
every decision i made was related to drinking. When i got my paycheck, i first subtracted the minimum amount that i was
going to need to stay drunk until my next paycheck. then came gas to get to work so i could get another paycheck, then came
everything else. if i wasn’t able to drink at an event or get together then i didn’t go. at the end i really felt like i was
just spinning my wheels going nowhere in life.

i had tried to quit on my own for about a year and a half before i finally figured out that i couldn’t do it.
man was that a terrible feeling. i don’t know what it’s like for girls but for someone who thought of himself
to be a man, admitting defeat was a hard pill to swallow. i finally broke down and prayed to god for help.
funny thing about prayer, it seems that when you ask for the things you need instead of what you want that it
really works. anyway, i was able to get into treatment where for the first time, i actually wanted a way out.
i wanted someone to show me how to quit drinking.

needless to say, i followed their instructions and got a sponsor and we met once a week and worked the steps right
out of the big book of AA. i am here to tell you that it worked. not only did it work but i got much more than
i expected. today i have a relationship with a higher power, an understanding if you will, of what God is.
i am not going to try and explain what it is. that is a very personal journey that we all must take on our own.
besides, it does not matter what your particular conception is. as long as you have some sort of conception. even if it
is only a simple willingness to believe.

today, i live my life in harmony with that power. i realize that i am not separate from it, but instead am a part
of it. all my decisions in life are made in accordance with that power. through hard work and lots of thought and
conscious habit forming, i have made a connection to my source and because of that connection, i know the answers
to any question i have. i don’t worry about the things that are going to happen tomorrow because i know God
has my back. i feel one with the universe and it feels real good. i am not the only one. anybody can have these things.
All you need is enough honesty, willingness and humility. if you truly desire these things then all you need to do
is to ask for them. god wants you to have them. he will help you to get what it is you truly need to become
the person that you were always meant to become.